398... so we're in the future now? [02 Jan 2010|03:13pm] strangeraeons [ music | Silver Jews - Send in the Clouds | Powered by Last.fm ] It's strange to think that the decade which has defined pretty much everyone I know is now over, and I don't know exactly how I can look back on it. I was thirteen years old when 2000 rolled around, still a child in most ways and wondering if planes would fall out of the sky and my shitty little hand-me-down desktop computer would crash, and if I would lose all those mp3s I wasted so much time and tying up the phone line getting. As far as the world went, Bill Clinton was still the president, 9/11 had not happened yet, there was no recession, things just were... and the world didn't seem like some fucked up house of cards yet. There was high school for me, then there were a couple years of college and then not having the money to continue classes right away, so now I'm about three years behind where I should be. I remember my friend Erin yelling, "Yay! No more beating treated like cattle!" on that final day in that warm summer of 2005 when we finally graduated from high school. Everything seemed fucking perfect then, and I mean fucking perfect. Even at eight teen years old, I was still in most ways a child. Most of the past decade was a lot of fun, and you know... why not only remember the best things? The nights spent hanging out, laughing our asses off, all the silly inside jokes made, all the shows we went to, all the drunken mishaps, and semi-innocent pranks. I wish I had more to say, but I think that about covers it. I don't make new year's resolutions, but if I had to have one... it would be to punch my anxiety square in the side of it's face and start having fun again, I can't believe it's 2010 and I'm 23 and fucking... ugh, I feel old. Life is short, it's time to start making more of it. 7 comments|post comment

Bzzzbzzzzzjf;lsajdf [29 Dec 2009|11:30am] strangeraeons Birthday, blah. With the exception of my brother, aunt, and cousin... I could shoot my whole family in the face and feel little if no remorse. My mom drinks my vodka, then yells at me for drinking too much and instigates my emotionally regressive grandparents and then they yell and scream when there's nothing to yell and scream about, and this is why I fucking hate the holidays - and unfortunately my birthday takes place right in the middle of this cauldron of shit. Fuck all of this, although it's my own fault I don't have my own place already. But when that happens, they shouldn't be surprised when they get little or no contact from me. Even last night my brother and I couldn't have a little fun at my fat bitch of a grandmother's expense without my mom chugging some of the vodka and then "telling" on us, causing some middle of the night uproar. I fucking hate them, and it was my jackass loud-mouth grandmother's idea to have everyone here anyway, even after trying to appeal to her reason. Ah, but there there is no reasoning going on in that fucking clucking coo-coo clock of a mind of her's, anyway. Oh, and when my mother gets around here, all bets are off, too. She's no better ...and now I sound like a child. But I just had to get that out there. For those of you who actually enjoy being around your family, you're pretty lucky... it's something I've never been able to stomach. 4 comments|post comment

[25 Dec 2009|12:42am] mcgills [ music | Modest Mouse - Lounge (Closing Time) | Powered by Last.fm ] i'm sayin this because i'm listening to a 31 year old and a 57 year old (whom i both love dearly) talk about their boyfriends being complete fucks. makes me wanna smoke as many dudes who deserve it as possible just sayin post comment

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